do you ever feel your life change in the moment?

“platonic friendships are so underrated because my friends heal parts of me they didn't even break when we are together while making believe that life's worth living again”

Sometimes I think when your life changes you don’t realize it until later, until after, you think “woah that just happened”. But in the moment, how often do we have the luxury to look around and feel your life change as it is happening?

That happened to me yesterday, many different times. Most good and some bad. Getting to talk to my best friend yesterday as I'm experiencing some of my favorite people live was something different for me. Usually when I'm out and I'm talking to people they would stop answering me, I know that was their way of being like go have fun!! Go experience life!! But I always wanted to experience it with them, it always upset me when people did that, it made me feel like they didn't care about me. I know that's my own personal problem and I should probably seek help for that, but yesterday my best friend didn't do that to me. He was excited with me and happy with me and never at one point was he not okay with experiencing things with me, in fact he was happy to. Every time I sent him a song that was playing or recorded something I wanted to show him I felt my life change. I feel my life change every day I'm friends with him. I'm so thankful I'm able to find him in so much, honestly even if I couldn't find him I would find a way to create a tie to him, find a way to include him in everything. I'd create the string myself.

Hearing give me love live was life changing, it's been my favorite song for 13 years now? I felt my life changing in that moment. Hearing other songs and thinking of my current stuff changed my life. How does someone end up heartbroken without dating anyone in the first place? I wouldn't wish this on anyone. I feel like a part of me is dying, in the most dramatic, consuming way.